Being Cancelled

Being Cancelled (Randyjw; November 20, 2021)

 

Remember when I wrote some time ago about being cancelled at a library after having issues with the IT people there in that the computers were tied too closely, and I needed to bring the monitor closer in order to be able to see it? Well, back then, I didn’t know that I had an eye problem… then it was eventually discovered when a nice optometrist gave me a free pair of glasses. The library in that city then tried to, and did, oust me by saying that it was the quantity of my bags that I carried. Meanwhile, the bags were in nobody’s way; there was plenty of room to place them right beside me along the rail of the zig-zag=shaped desk structures they had. But, ban me from there they did, despite another individual with his bags spread out all over the adjoining desk (not even his own) who was blatantly sitting right before us as the “director” or whoever was giving me my marching orders.

 

Then, when I was discriminated against by Walmart, and could no longer buy food there and had to purchase it from a pharmacy-type store (um… that is really not “real” food), I had bought ice cream at the pharmacy/convenience store and then went to eat it on the outer perimeter of that Walmart plaza. Was told I couldn’t even do that by law enforcement.  Since I used to catch the community bus at Walmart, I could no longer do so, and had to wait for the bus to come out around the back of Walmart in order for the little bus to collect me. One of the bus drivers, in explaining something to someone one day, had said that they could stop for and pick-up passengers at any place along their route, as long as it wasn’t on a main street (which it mostly is not; it mostly runs through the residential neighborhoods). However, I was twice asked to move from a legitimate little-bus location by law enforcement who don’t know the bus routes or the laws, and told to wait at a county bus stop. Because of this, I cannot use the little bus, as it makes it very far and quite difficult for me to otherwise get there, so I could not go to another library location that I used to use alot. Now, I was just told that they might be talking to me now about my bags at this library location I’ve been using for maybe a couple of years already (?). They still have segregated computers (due to COVID) , meaning that you can only use every other computer. My bags fit just fine under the desk beside me; I can even fit them under the one I sit at, if necessary… I just haven’t been, as it makes things alot easier to use the vacant desk beside me. Lately, I’ve been having problems with the USB ports on these computers; they are not charging my phone now, and, yesterday, the system was converting my phone device name to something else I didn’t recognize — nor did Windows, so it essentially locked me out. Today, I can also not charge it via the USB computer port.

 

I told the librarian that I do not have a storage unit to place my items. Again, I just need the stuff that’s with me — a few pants, shirts, socks, blankets, some junky food that I cry about that I can’t even run around like I used to and go to church dinners and soup kitchens, because I’m awfully harassed by others in the community. I mostly think it’s due to my faith, my political views, etc.

 

I’m even kindof dropping the religion-ish type of stuff (but not the fighting of  antisemitism and terrorism, etc.) for now in a terrible experiement that’s going way worse for my life than even what I’ve been experiencing so far. Nevertheless, I felt it was important to try it, so that I can try  to better connect with humanity, as opposed to just G-d, G-d, G-d all my life. Nothing’s really changed on the outside, or whatever, in my being/presentation/presence, etc. I’ve even read parshot that confirm this move (although I’m probably going about it all wrong). Ah, well. Whatever. I think that there are many people, including library patrons, etc., trying to go against me, and doing so more openly and brazenly, although covertly. So…how much more miserable and discriminatory against me can people be? And how much more so the consequences of their supposed self-righteousness (or whatever). And right before the holidays — just like law enforcement did to me two Decembers ago.

 

Get out of my way, now… You’re making me mad.