No Soul

No Soul (Randyjw; September 16, 2021)

I felt like a hypocrisy

to rail at G-d

to draw, closer

and higher

but not looking

where I was going

with blinders on

To be the light

while losing a heart

closing out humanity

and living in the dark

I rebelled

shook my fist and yelled

Truly discovered love

live in a self-made Hell

wrote it and posted it

Thirteen minutes later

I felt a horizontal roll

taken from my heart

At first,

I felt lighthearted

Because, that’s what I was;

what I am,

and what I’ve become

Soulless –

Undeserving for the things I’ve done

Torn out by the One who

put it there

into the

one who

made it whole